strings re-attached

 time heals

that's a fact , and I think this time, i have to apreciate the oppurtunity to the fullest, and never take it for granted again.

until we see again

adrift

 well, it's taken almost couple of weeks now, and there's a slight progress in the making, but I ain't sure it's in the positive way or vice versa.  still hoping that all the troubles could be managed strategically and the struggle isn't the main concern now.

the difference in view really pays it's due I think. toughen up and repel the unnecessary things. try to remain in calm and analyze any oppurtunity that should be taken, and try to grasp it as tight as I could, so this time there's no doubt about me that can be cried out anymore. any distractions have been terminated, and now all that matters is that I can feel and retouch the vibrant and pure fragrance of the once blooming seed.

still making the climb I think

a decade still young, and many still need to be learned

time heals, and I hope the phrase were true indeed

one step at a time

how do you get back from falling deep down the abysmal black hole?

that's a question that still left unanswered, although there's many response that you can get from so called philosopher, fake prophet and the wannabe in the social media platform, seems there's no actual answer that can put the sequence back in it's perspective.

people will show you how they cope with the situation by giving you how they manage to resolve their own shit, and as you can see, each person have their own way of  comeback and that's how we can realize that each one have had their own perspective on their own inner play. the problems may vary and each of them differs depends on the weight, the obstacle and the person who face it. that is why we always heard different solution and different findings while the real question that we heard are just the same.

thus, just start to repair the broken, even it is hard and we always believe that there's a little chance that things will be the same again. every chances matters. we have to gain back the strenght, and try to brave the storm little by little, and keep our feet rooted tightly so we won't flew and drawn to the swirling wind and back once more to that deep hole.

it's a challenge, but it isn't impossible.

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heh, it's easier to be said than to be done, but at least it's a progress right?

changes

although you long for something so hard, doesn't mean that it's what you wanted after all.

frankly said, when the time comes, and you get what you aim so eagerly, you'll notice that it actually aren't the same as you predicted, theoretically. something along the way may get caught in time, the changes of an era, and the way our mind works after years of experience gathered by so many obstacle.

we just didn't realize that we aren't the same people we used to be anymore.

but the funny part is, we still get our target with the same dream that we kept for all these years. 

it's just that it doesn't feels right anymore.

something that you long so much before, now just a reminiscence of the past glory unprepared when we actually pass the finish line and strike the goal.

alas, i think i don't deserve to dream no more, just be in time and follow the flow of the so called river called life until i get tired, and grasp anything in the way that i can reach, and try to hold onto it until there's no energy left, and let the stream decide whether this man should float or sunk.

i think that's the decision in this instant. maybe tomorrow the tide will turn, or the book turns to new leaf, who knows. 

for sure, I ain't giving up.

when you went right, but it actually left

mainly, interpretation of some issue that comes but you easily accepted the information based on your own perception. 

why people doesn't take issues and see it from all the perspective given, but seldom tend to choose the reason that suits their belief, I mean you already have your judgement before you scroll down the evidence. so where's the justice?

but, we just can blame it all on prejudice, sometimes the problem that appears solely comes from your own fault, and you had to admit it. But that's the problem ; people tend to make assumption based on your past faultiness, that actually have been ridden mostly entirely. 

our minds work mysteriously, and we as human doesn't always make a true judgement and as always, bias will come into picture. we aren't  robots that can analyze things based on what they were programmed to, and they just see things as simple as 1 and 0. 

yeah, problems do come and go, and technically that's how people can evolve and gain experience, hence we develope ourselves as we try to solve it.

but sometimes, there's problem so deep that you feel that you're hanging by a thread and anytime the steep gorge will consume you , whether you're ready or not. sometimes you feel so hopeless like you just think ending thyself is the solution, and also sometimes you think that all the burden of this world was weighted on your shoulder,even walking seems impossible. 

truely, you only know who you are, it's hopeless to reason with people when they have their own perception on you, and trying to justify is just a waste of time. what's left is just your trust and believe in the Almighty. but we will keep moving on, that's life man. Time will tell, that someday the soothing light at the end of the tunnel comes, and there's paradise awaits.